Earlier this evening I had the pleasure of speaking with the lovely Lisa Fine, one of many that created the Organization “Route 91 Strong”, as survivors helping other survivors in need. I was able to share with Lisa mine and my husbands story and I’d like to share it with you all as well, for those of you that don’t know, David and I got engaged at the Route 91 Harvest Festival in 2016, and we decided to return in 2017 for our Honeymoon. We had just got married a week prior on September 20, 2017 and about 2 weeks before that we found out we were expecting our first baby. On the night of October 1st, we experienced the worst thing I’ve ever been faced with. Along with the 22,000 others that were there. My husband knew right away what was happening and he got us out of there as quickly as possible, knocking down a fence and stopping a truck to ask for a ride to safety. All I kept thinking in that moment was that we were just starting our lives together, we haven’t even got to hold our baby yet. We are so blessed to have made it out together.
Following the shooting everything took a downward spiral. Due to the pregnancy I was unable to get confirmation of my believed injuries which included a sprained shoulder and cracked rib from being trampled on. Sleepless nights turned into nights of nightmares, I would have constant panic attacks, I couldn’t be alone, I refused to leave the house or even get out of bed unless I absolutely had to. My husband got demoted at work for taking time off to care for me. I was never able to return to work. We had to move out of our apartment because we couldn’t afford to live, bills stacked up. Some days I felt so hopeless I would question whether or not I was even going to be able to be a mother to our baby. Adoption crossed my mind, as awful as I feel admitting that, I didn’t know what else to do. We applied for assistance through several resources and it always fell through some way or another. Some days I just wanted to give up.
Well, It’s been a little over 5 months and for the first time I feel this weight lifted off our shoulders and for the first time, I actually believe there is hope out there for us. Thanks to Lisa and her team at Route 91 Strong, we are finally going to receive some assistance to help us get above drowning waters. I wish I could embrace this team with hugs and truly show them just how grateful we are for helping us.
Route 91 Strong are survivors helping survivors, and it just humbles me that these souls have found it inside themselves to fight the evil and darkness that this incident has brought upon us, and to turn it around and help others in need, Especially knowing that they too are healing from this. They really have given me strength and hope to hold on and fight to overcome this. I finally feel like I can take a breath and actually just be excited for our sweet babygirl to arrive in a few weeks, rather than stress about being so behind. So again from the bottom of my heart, from my family to yours, thank you so so so much for all you have done and continue to do. I hope one way or another we are able to pay it forward and help to contribute and help others in need as well.